Senioritis.

       

      
                                         

I haven't blogged since June, due to my forgetful brain, couldn't even remember a password. So, HEY! Summer is gone, and fall is here! I can't even wrap my head around how FAST that time in between went. Let's start with my summer. I did so many things, amazing, wonderful, CRAZY things. It was a summer of lasts. Last year at Girl's Camp, last year at the Pioneer Trek, first and last year at EFY, last year of Drill Camp, and last summer in high school. It's wierd to think how "grown up" I am now. Kind of freaks me out, made my heart sort of tug, torn both ways of sadness and excitement. But I truly feel like this summer prepared me for everything that's already coming my way. Girl's Camp made me realize I was never coming back as a Young Women and someday that it might just be my calling in the church... I may even just go back as an old leader! What the heck? The Pioneer Trek made me realize how easy we have it now, I thought doing chores, cleaning my bedroom, and all the outside world things were bad! It's not like we have to walk through ice cold water and pull handcarts up the biggest inclines known to man. That was just a little glimpse. I am so thankful for the ways now. And what can I say about EFY? Especially For Youth. They weren't kidding, I feel like it was made for me. I so needed a pick-me-up this summer, and that's exactly what I got. You met a new person everyday who was so genuinely nice! SO MUCH FUN TOO. It was the gospel everyday, all day, all week and not ONCE did I ever tire of it, it was the experience of a lifetime, and I so wish it would have lasted longer. I've never felt my testimony grow that much. I was on a spiritual high, haha. I even got to spend my birthday there! One thing I know to be true : no matter where you go, this gospel is TRUE, it is the same and always will be. I should probably stop talking about EFY cause now I miss it. It was even better to come home to a wonderful surprise birthday decorated room :) So, moving on! haha. It was my last year of Drill Team Camp. And what a way to have it go out with a bang! SOOOO LEGIT. Indoor Water Park? YES! Never ending yummy buffet? YES! Team Bonding? YES! Hours and hours and hours of dance? YESSS! It was truly an awesome time, and I love my girls more than anything. This year will definitely be one to REMEMBER. I also got to go on THEE best Laurel's trip ever. I LOVE TO YACHT IN THE SAN JUANS. Definitely a highlight of my summer. When I wasn't away in the summer, I was enjoying good old Moses Lake. Boating, walking through the corn fields, riding the horse, laughing and crying with my best friends, spending as much time as possible with my summer love ;), eating chocolate, late movie nights, stargazing, drill team practices, driving around endlessly, cleaning out my closet, babysitting, texting, mormon partying it up with my girls, and imagining in my head what the next, but last year in high school would be like.
                  Well, here I am. After an exhausting end of August, I stepped into SENIOR YEAR. Probably could have been more positive... but on my first day, the only thing I could think of was "What the heck. Where did my summer go?? AH! I don't want to be here! Is the year over yet?!". For real. It was all I could do to not burst into tears. I realized, I was so over high school. It's not that I don't love the weekends with my friends, because believe me... I DO. Not that I don't absolutely love drill team - because there is no doubt I do!! Not that I think my schedule or classes are too hard, because they aren't- really. I am just ready for a new everything. New atmosphere, new people, new change, new routine... new, new, new! I am bored. It hit me pretty hard, too. Everyday all I say to myself in my head is "One foot in front of the other". Especially when I hear immature lower classmen curse in every single sentence, wait no.. they curse every split second, when kids think that they have to yell to each other in the hallways when they're RIGHT next to each other, when there are couples sucking each other's faces off against walls, when your trying to get to class and there are people taking their SWEET FREAKING TIME, when kids who can drive literally think it's a demo derby in the parkinglot, or when people think it's okay to be unbelievably rude to anyone and everyone. I swear, no one has respect there. It's a jungle. ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER MAKENNA.
            High School for some is a time for people to find out who they are, what they want to do in life, and how they are going to get there. And thank heavens for those people who have their heads on straight. But for some, they lose complete sight as to why they are there in the first place. If your coming for your boyfriend who won't be your boyfriend after the four years here, if your coming for the social parts of it, if your coming with a big head and thinking your sooo cool, if your coming thinking you have the best car, if your coming thinking that what you do now won't effect you are- will be, and what you'll do after high school... you'd better rethink that and figure it out. Good luck to ya.
            As for me, I have Senioritis. My mind is so set on making the correct choices and decisions, working hard and making my friendships with my friends last, because after all... I am stuck here for the rest of this school year. In high school, you find out who your true friends are. And I have them. I am going to slip up sometimes, but I can always fix things, and these friends... will never give up on me. I don't need the perfect boyfriend, the perfect car, the perfect social status, the perfect everything to be happy in high school. I got a whole lotta good stuff ahead. 
                So, not trying to be a complete downer, because there are the great things about high school. The weekends where you do crazy things with your friends, trying to make Moses Lake fun. Like last night, who else would go to Denny's late at night wearing onesies? Yeah, my friends and I. It's what we do. :) I am learning Sign Language and using that as my Senior Project- teaching it to my third graders I get to see everyday for fourth period. Seeing them makes me realize how much they have ahead of them and how truly innocent they are. And I was one of them, and I never thought I'd get here. I'm grown up. I know who I am, what I want to do in life, and how I'm going to get there!
                   It's my last year at home. Last times with family here at home, last Christmas at home, last New Year's Eve at home, last Valentine's Day at home, last Spring Break at home, last year of Drill Team...  last year of early morning practices and last night practices, last times of stepping out onto the floor with my team to show people what we work so hard for... all these last performances- Guy/Girl, first last home competition, first last Nationals, and last time at State. And of all, GRADUATION. Last time here as a high schooler. Because this summer will be... college everything. College firsts. I'll be 18! So, here's to Senior Year, please go by fast so I can stop going insane.... but at the same time.... LONG LIVE.