Freaky.
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Boxes and suitcases.
Holy moly. My room is becoming empty. Boxes are full of my shoes, food, decorations, and random small things. Suitcases contain all my clothes, except the ones I am leaving behind. My bed is bare, no pretty blue comforter, not one pillow, and basically everything... is sort of ready. I am leaving behind a lot in my room, but I still feel like I am taking way to much! It is so hard to decide what I need, because I really won't know until I'm in Rexburg and I need it! So, I'm just playing it safe, and taking lotsa stuff. Today, while my brothers were gone at school, and parents at work, I did the last of the packing by myself. I will admit, I got a little teary eyed and had to stop just so I could breathe a little bit. I am so anxious and so excited, but it really doesn't cover up how frightened I am. I'm already homesick. I was texting Maren about some things that were troubling me, and she said something that applies to every little thing that is worrying my mind right now. "Don't try and figure it out. Let Heavenly Father figure it out for you." I stared at the words for a couple of seconds, and thought. It's so true. I'm about to go off and experience a completely different stage of life, and this is my only chance to mature on my own. I just need to woman up, and trust that Heavenly Father is going to take me where I need to go, and help me do what I gotta do. As scary as it may be to see my room emptying out, to know that tomorrow morning is the last morning I wake up in my bed, to know that today I have to say goodbye to people (heck, I ain't putting ANY make up on today, I'm just gonna cry it off anyway), and just knowing that I leave tomorrow bright and early... it's okay. It's scary. But I need to remember; my life starts tomorrow morning. Like, the real thing. I need to remember that it's going to be FUN. So much fun. And it's going to be hard. So so hard. But I will have the time of my life, and before I know it, it'll be time to pack up my apartment to move for the next semester. And then, it'll be time to come home for a summer. The only thing that brings me comfort to leave; I always will have a place to come home to. And that makes it alllll better.
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Having mixed emotions is a normal feeling when you love our home, your family, friends and yet you are excited to see, feel, hear what college is all about. You will have that feeling of independence that even the birdies all had to go through. I am sure they did not want to leave their nests, but they knew they needed to if they wanted to explore other places and things in life. I know you are going to love it. You will have wonderful roommates and you may have some that are not whom you would choose for a friend....having said that you are a very wonderful young woman with a terrific personality....so you are going to have tons of friends. Yes, there will be those that are jealous of you because you are so strikingly beautiful. The guys are going to take one look at you and have their tongues hanging out (that is a compliment by the way). Study hard. Play a little. You will have a wonderful time and it will always have a place in your heart...great experience for you. I know you will be an example in every way to the other girls and they will look to you for guidance, leadership and friendship. Eat healthy...get your 8 hours beauty sleep...and always CTR. I love you dearly Makenna. You will be very much missed, but I am proud of you and your desire to learn and get a degree. I love you my sweet girl with the voice of an angel, Mimi
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