I gotta go and I cannot wait.

Today I have been thinking a lot about college. And I have no idea why. But it's always in the back of my brain. All I've been thinking is, I have got to get out of here, and quick. My three part time jobs are not exactly how I'd like to spend my summer, but hey, money for college is crucial. I guess I'll thank myself later. I probably will. Lately mom has been bringing home my basic groceries, basic kitchen tools, boxes of noodles, stocked me up on shaving cream, lotsa saran wrap, and heck- she even bought me bundles of my own toilet paper. Here is a description of what my room looks like. One side is college everything stacked up, some on the couch and some in tubs. My comforter set, my laundry stuff, my entertainment for college, all that is on one side of the room. And on the other side, is where I'm living. I don't ever make my bed anymore, actually I stopped doing that when I was like 12. I have all my belongings that I won't be taking to college in my hope chest, and  I have lotsa clothes on the floor. I clean them, but really, they're just gonna get packed up anyways. Hahaha. I'm trying to imagine what it'll all look like come a month from today. Should be pretty bare. Boxed up. It's so freaking scary, but so freaking exciting!! Mainly, I just want to step out of my comfort zone. I want a change of scenery, new people, and a new me. I guess this is the part of life, where people truly find out who they are and the actual idea of what they really want. I've been trying to compare my wants right now, to the wants I'll have at college. They'll probably change or be forgotten completely. I have a plan for myself, but, who knows, ask me in a few months down the road or even next year- the plan could totally change. That's pretty terrifying, considering I have a pretty safe and secure plan. But, things happen. I have my expectations of what my first year of college will be like. I will more than likely just want to scream and pull my hair out due to stresses ranging from strangers as roommates and how I am just not the best student. But I'm going to try to just breathe and keep it all in and try to act as an adult. Ha. I know that it is not going to be easy, but I need it. I think that is why I'm having such a hard time getting through this boring summer. My life is waiting. I think this is the first time ever, that I will ever ever ever say, I wish this summer would go by faster. I gotta go, and I cannot wait!

                                                  

18... It's about time. And how sweet it is.

Well, I made it! The big 18. I feel like it's finally just about time! But my mom totally put a downer on the day when she said that age says nothing, it's your actions. So basically she said that yeah, I'm 18, but I don't act like it. Haha. I know she means well, it was funny. But I really do feel 18. Adult? Well, yeah, I guess so. :)
          A little bit about my birthday weekend. Friday, after I got off work, I went home and got ready for my birthday date with T-Platt. For the first time in forever (because I hardly get ready in the summer), I got all fancied up, and right at 5:00, or something like that.. I answered the door and there was this tall, handsome boyfriend of mine standing with a rose in his hand and the cheesiest grin on his face. He patiently waited as I finished getting ready and we left for town. I may list many reasons as to why he's a keeper throughout this post. The fact that he literally lives on the opposite side of town from me and drives back and forth just to pick me up, drop me off, etc.. it's definitely a points winner. I'm grateful. Not many boys would do that, especially when it takes 25-30 minutes in between. BUT, then again... his parents do pay for the gas.... haha.
           We got to town, and he took me to Michaels on the Lake, where I most definitely got spoiled. Red rasberry lemonade, caesar salad, and yes... STEAK. The kid allowed me to order a pricey steak and potatoes and the whole shabang! IT WAS AWESOME. After we stuffed our bellies full of amazing food, Baskin Robbins was our next stop. Though we did sit in his car for like 15 minutes just to let our tummies find room for more. After really yummy ice cream, Tyler thought it'd be fun to go people watching in the park... it was so wierd. Haha. "Come on, Makenna! Just enjoy it!" Yeah, Moses Lake has super classy people. Then once I had had enough of the horrible wanna-be band music and campers in McCosh, we hopped in his car (me a little too happy to do so) and drove to the movie theaters and saw Ice Age 4 or 5 or whatever it is. 3D. Super cute, but super long. And of course, I'd get the luck of the draw and have a drunk guy seated behind me, slurring his words, and spilling his drink everywhere and being obnoxious. I could smell it. Nasty. Then he finally got up and left, with his bum hanging out of his shorts. Oh yuck. It was a good laugh though, some people are so pathetic.
            Ty took me home around 11:15 and we stargazed on my trampoline until 12. As soon as it hit midnight, he said happy birthday and kissed me. Kissed me good. Am I allowed to say that? Oh well, it's my blog... and I'm an adult! ;) Friday night was just really good. For Saturday, since that was my real birthday, my phone and my facebook got blown up with happy birthday wishes, and that was really just so sweet and I so appreciated it. I slept a lot on my birthday. Haha. I didn't have to work and I was just relaxed! Joshua got home from EFY and I got to talk to him about how much he loved it, and about a cute girl that he met. A mormon girl. Haha. Joshie is such a good boy. I really didn't do much all day until about 4:30 when Ty came over. We watched Eragon on tv and did nothing. I'm so good at doing nothing. Especially when you have a sweet boyfriend to snuggle with and absolutely do nothing. 5:30, and we were all seated down at the dinner table and had, once again... STEAK and potatoes and salads and it was... amazing. I was in heaven, having steak two days in a row! My family really gets along with and likes Ty, and that makes me super happy and content.
            7:30, and my grandparents came for dessert and presents. I told Tyler that I would be getting a ton of stuff for college. Welcome to being an adult! haha. And I did, but every single thing I got I loved. Mom and Dad got me a lot of stuff for my apartment: shoe hangers and shelf hangers, a chalkboard for my roomies and I to write notes to each other, clothes, and some really good smelling lotions and whatnot. My grandma and pa got me a handy little "satchel" that will carry everything I need at college like my laptop and binders and all that school stuff. And my grandma was careful to add already stamped envelopes and blank cards, she should self addressed them! Haha. My sweet Mimi and Bampa gave me a thoughtful card and some birthday money. Birthday money is always good :)
             AAANNND. My favorite present, came from Ty. The sweet boy brought in this huge basket. In it was a blanket THAT HE MADE ON HIS OWN in my favorite color, a teddy bear (that I'm pretty sure smells just like him), Dove chocolates, BYU I shirt so I can stop reppin' Utah State haha, BYU I lanyard, and a cute little card. Yeah, his ma may have put it all together, and no he didn't go all the way to Rexburg- just had the sis' in law bring my shirt&lanyard down, but he thought of every single thing JUST for me. And c'mon, he made a flippin blanket! He impressed me most definitely, but in that moment, my grandma and my mom- they were so won over. Haha.
            So, we had some good cake and ice cream, said goodbye to the grandparents, and finished off the night by watching UP. It was a simple, yet, beautiful day. The only thing that could have completed it... is if my parents flew up Maren here and she, you know, woke me up in my bed, but haha,  I'm happy. Everything's good. I'm 18. I think Ty was more excited than I was, but hey, it's all good. And you know what's even better?.... I can have steak for breakfast. :)

            Thank you for supporting me the last 18 years, and for the support to come and that will always stay. I love you all!

Lemonade. At Michaels.

Ty thinks this picture is funny.

He done did good, it's teal and all.

:)

He enjoyed the chocolate cake! baha.

Cheesy smiles say it all.

A happy smile, to a happy birthday!

I miss Maren.

So, from the title, you can already tell that I'm just gonna go off about how I miss Maren so much. Well- I do, okay?! I just really do. This summer is nothing like I thought it would be, and that's basically because I'm spending it without my best friend. She's having a blassssstttt. Which is awesome! But I can already tell that Skyping sessions just, won't be enough. I sound like such a hopeless girl without her. Well- I am, okay?! It's just completely different without her.
          Tomorrow is the 4th of July. My first Hirz family party without her. We kinda make the best memories then. Like, the best. I'm taking Tyler with me, but there's only so much a boyfriend can do, and Maren's got BIG shoes to fill. Like, huge. But, other than me moping about how much I miss Maren, life is pretty good. Really nothing too special right now because the biggest thing going on in my life is extreme makeover up room edition. No joke, I've gone through every drawer, every shelf, every part of my closet and every nook and cranny in my room. My Aunt Julie is having a garage sale, and so I gots lots to get rid of and get some extra moneys college. AND I'm kinda already starting to pack. Scary. I feel like I did when I saw Maren's room becoming empty- eek.
           It's funny, even though I'm at a major point in my life, I feel like I'm stuck! I go to work, do the last little college preparation stuff, and I go and hang out with my friends and Ty, and watch PLL- which, there was not a new episode today and I'm SOOO heated. But anyways. And it's a fine routine! I love being with my friends and Ty. I like working at the snow shack, not so much my other job- but it's cool. Everything is fine. But I think I'm just like, ohkkayy- I'm ready, let's go! But at the same time I'm like, ohkay, as soon as it's time to go, Imma be wishin it wasn't! Haha. Sit for a while and listen to what goes on in my head, and you'd think I'm crazy. I just really miss Maren.
            Okay, so basically I just wanted to blog because my life is boring and I miss Maren. Yup. That's basically it. Haha. Don't worry, life is good, but life without Maren- that's no life at all! Oh and I blogged because I'm super bored. Don't be too flattered Mare ;) Peace out.

Nuff SAID!!

I'm Only Me When I'm With You.

I can safely say, as probably as pathetic as it is... Saying goodbye to Maren and all the feelings afterwards- were and are much worse than a break up. Haha. I didn't think the day where we'd have to say "I'll see you in a couple of months..." would happen. Last night our friends got together to say our last goodbyes and all that jazz. I don't think I've ever cried so hard and I'm not really sure how I got home safely, especially when everything was behind blurry, teared eyes. Maren and I just kept crying and hugging and laughing, and that repeated itself for more than 10 minutes. My eyes are dry and puffy, and my heart hurts a little too much. Everytime I'm alone I go into panic mode and realize I can't just look across the field to know Maren's there, safe and sound. Shoot. This best friend business is hard. After saying goodbye to Mare, I'm pretty positive I sounded like the BIGGEST baby. I haven't cried like that since... I was like 10. I didn't get any sleep, and when I went to work I felt like a zombie. Drove home and cried once again. And yes, it's okay for me to have a little pity party for myself. Being away from your sister after being together for 18 years is... just dumb. I'm so excited for her, don't get me wrong, but I just wish we hadn't grown up so fast.
            Maren is the kind of girl who, no matter how much you don't make sense, gets it all. Understands what I'm saying when no one else does, or even tries. She's the friend that laughs with me about the most ridiculous things that no one else finds funny. Maren is the only person that knows every single detail about me and STILL chooses to be my best friend. She's the friend that I can talk to about our crazy family, the boys who steal our little hearts, how good this food was, the embarrassing things that happened to us that week, and the one who will allow me to lay on her bed and talk about... nothing.
           Maren is the girl who everyone wants to be around, because she brings out the best in everyone. Makes everyone laugh, and there's just never a dull moment. Like, ever. I admire her for everything she is. She will have no trouble making new friends at college, and capturing lotsa boys' hearts. It's going to be a little more difficult than it should be to get through this summer without her. She is irreplaceable and after never being separated for 18 years, is literally a life change. It's like having a big part of you, gone!
           Growing up is tricky. I remember always saying when I was younger how I couldn't wait to get to high school or college, and that it wouldn't happen- it would just take too long. Well, now it's here, and I don't think I ever took into careful consideration what it would really feel like seeing empty rooms, packed up boxes, and hugging for the last time for a good 3 months. But that is also the good part about growing up and these goodbies. The ones I love the most, and that are the most important to me, I'll always be with no matter the distance. We'll always come back during Thanksgiving's, Christmas's, and back for a summer before it starts all over again. It's truly a little bit intimidating how fast time really goes. If I thought it'd take this long to get to college and how it really just flew over my head, then I'll be married and have a family in no time. Haha, justttt kidding... But I'm serious.
          Of course I'm excited for Maren, she's going to have the time of her life. I'm just really going to miss her. This summer will be something I will always remember for many reasons. This'll probably bring me and Liza B even closer since we'll both be Maren deprived. I might also enjoy an extended summer love, I mean, I'm kinda taking up this boyfriend thing.. :) Haha. I'll be slowly detaching away from being lazy and letting momma do everything for me. I'll be more cautious of what I keep and throw out, because I got a room to pack up at the end of the summer. I'll be a LITTLE nicer to my brothers, a little. I'll be skying with Mare quite often, no biggie. I might miss her a little too much, but I know that the next time we see each other, that reuniting hug will be one to go down in the books. Ohhhh this'll be a long summer.
          Alright, Mare. Go get 'em. Go find a little part of 'Provo Maren' in you. Make the lifelong friends, and go on some good dates and just be YOU. They'll either run, or they'll fall head over heels. ;) Work hard, and show them all why you deserve to be there. Don't forget your best friend back in good ol' Moses Lake. Remember to write it all down in your journal. Cause this is it. I love you and I'll be missing you every day. We're like... a peanut. One shell until we're cracked open! Do you remember that funny? Cause I don't remember how to say it, but it sure was hilarious. Or maybe it wasn't. Eh, I can't remember. Well, don't worry baby girl, I'll give Dyl some good hugs.
           I'm only me when I'm with you, and you know it's true.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AlTfYj7q5gQ

Summer a while back.

My favorite of us from Girl's Camp!

Junior Year.

Our famous 'Telly Tubby' face.

Halloween!

Christmas Eve!

Prom.

Seminary Graduation.

Graduation Day!

You know how we do. ;)

We hold hands for everything!

All done!

LOVE.

Wouldn't let me smear cake on her face.

Our mommies. :)

"You're my best friend..."

"Yeah, yeah, yeah... You're mine too."

    

High School Graduate?

So, I did it! I peaced out of high school like it was no body's business! Haha. But really. Saturday was definitely a memorable day, there were so many happy emotions. I don't think I even cried once like I imagined I would. ONLY BECAUSE IT'S JUST SO EXCITING! My summer has already started! I don't work at all this week until Friday. So what do I get to do while my family is off at school and work? I get to sleep IN. Hang out in sweats. Make thank you letters, and carry up great gifts to my room. A little bit about gifts. I now have my kitchen stuff all good to go. HOLY JUNK. Like, I have my own silverware!! And my own cheese grater! Uh, weird. Just weird. But awesome. Also, now I have enough to pay for an entire year of housing at college, which is something to definitely be excited about! But I think my favorite part that came of graduation, is this pretty little laptop sitting right in front of me. I LOVE IT. Of course, when I go to college, it'll have to be used for other things such as school work... but for right now, it is soooo much fun to play around with. I'd say it was worth getting through high school. So, now that I am graduated... I got one long summer of work and fun, and then it's college time. I guess you could already consider me a freshman in college? Registration is on June 20th. Heck, I don't know what I'm supposed to take! That's why I got a mom and lots of older friends! Life is just getting good. I am happy. Now that I'm not everywhere at once, and things have started to slow down, I get time to read my scriptures in the morning and am making time for at night. I think that has DEFINITELY played into the happiness role. I have to make that a steady routine, because when I go to college, that's when I'll need my Heavenly Father the most. I can't wait for what's next. But for right now, a relaxed summer, with 2 good jobs, good friends, and skyping almost every night with Maren sounds good! I can't believe she's actually moving away next Wednesday... I don't think it has hit me yet, one bit. I don't know how I'll react to Wednesday, but it's ok because we'll always be together... and we both got pretty lap tops to skype with each other on. Thank goodness for today's technology! I am so glad to be done with high school. I am ready for the next part of life. I'm a high school graduate, and a freshman in college. Here we go.

Just countin' the days...

It seems that the only thing that has been stuck on my mind for the past... 9 months (haha), but more than ever is GRADUATION. I was thinking of all the great things that this means. It means that I don't have to walk through the halls as a high schooler any longer, it means that my summer starts (YES.), it means I can start working (which is really ironic, because one of my jobs is working at the high school tutoring summer school- BUT I'm getting paid and that makes it ok), I get to freeze in a snow cone shop the whole summer- and I'm actually really excited about it, it means I'll soon be an adult, it means I am one step closer to college, and it all basically comes down to the fact that my freedom officially starts on June 2, day of graduation. It all sounds great, right? I even told my mom that to not wait up for me that night... Cause I ain't coming home!! But then... I started to think about some other factors that will play into graduation. My best friend leaves for her summer term the week after graduation, I have to start preparing myself for that. Because I can't keep pretending that it's not going to happen. But the only reason I'm ok with it, is because I know that with her and I it's never really ever goodbye. And we get to walk together at graduation, how many people get to say that they walked with not only their best friend but their cousin and sister all in one? That's gonna be great! We are combining graduation parties, and when our family gets together- that's a lot of food and a TON of fun. June 2nd will be a really, really good day. But another downer, endless shopping for college. I don't really like shopping, and I don't like thinking about everything that falls under the category of preparing for college. But then again, that should be exciting! And of all, graduation means another chapter of life complete. Today I went and picked up the letter that I wrote to myself my eighth grade year. It was a LIIIIITTLE embarrassing, but more than anything it was just proof how much I have grown up. And I am so grateful for that haha. Life goes pretty quick. If those four years just flew by, then the next 8 days or so will be here in no time. I'll be wearing my cap and gown, surrounded by friends, peers, and family. I am so grateful for the memories and experiences I have taken away from high school. Whether it'd be drill team, school in general, memories with friends- I'd say I had a pretty good four years, even though I still hate high school. :) Tomorrow is the "senior frolic trip". They're driving us up to Sun Lakes and it's an all day party. We'll see how that goes, but hey, at least we won't be sitting in class. So, the next time I blog, I'll probably be, a high schooler no more, and a freshman in college soon to be. Whoa. Peace out high school.

;) Totally mature and ready to graduate, huh?

Long Live. Drill Team Theme Song.