Bad Dreams; New Wings

Have you ever had dreams where they feel so real, you wake up with your heart pounding and tears just streaming down your cheeks? Where you literally can feel everything that happens in your dream? This morning was one of those moments. Instead of posting on Facebook and saying that really annoying line "The moment where..." because literally those status's are bugging me, I wanted to just blog, because it's what I seem to do these days. And probably because Facebook is starting to bug me.
          So, just a wild guess, but what was my dream about? You got it, college! And usually I run to Maren or Liza, and talk about how I "don't want to go to college anymore!". Because of course I do, but you have to admit because it's the only thing constantly on my mind- all I am left to think about is the part of actually leaving. The dream consisted of the goodbies and the part of traveling to where I'll live for the new part of my life. In my dream, my parent's sent me off on my own, in my car. My directions were on a paper from google. My mom handed me all my childhood CD's and told me to turn up the music to keep me awake. I said goodbye to family, friends, my horse, and my childhood room. It was just a dream- but man, was that hard! As I drove off, everything was left in my rearview mirror. With that, I woke up.
          Even if it was a just a silly little bad dream, it got to me. I had Kyle come lay down with me and being the sweet little boy he is, he told me everything will be okay. Once you get past the little annoying parts, he is the greatest little boy I will ever know. I think he might be a very hard part to leave. We went and visited our Mimi, and of course, being the wise lady she is- we talked about my future. One thing she said stuck out to me. "Even though this door is closing, and another one is opening- you must remember, that door that is "closing" will never really close. It's just a door stop- you will ALWAYS be able to come back home, Makenna." That will always be a comfort- HOME. As we were leaving, she told me that home will always be my nest, and it will always be warm- it is our comfort zone. But guess what? Everything I've ever known, has led me to the point where I have to let go, where I have to how she said, "Open those little wings, flap them as hard as you can, and fly." Those words will stay with me, even through the bad dreams. I guess, you could call them my new wings, specifically designed for what's ahead. So what am I going to do? Open my little wings, flap them as hard as I can, and fly. When the times comes, that is.